cjfidler asked: Hey man, Don't sweat this all that much. I know what he said was harsh but you two are closer than anyone I know and this may bring you closer yet. The position of older brother to one without a father is a tricky one. while you are not his dad to you he feels like your son. as he grows you need to become less of a dad more of a bro and I think it will all work out great in the end.

The thing is, I actually am his dad. I mean, genetically and all that shit.

I didn’t raise him like a traditional father. I knew I wouldn’t be able to. I was too young and I didn’t
know a thing about parenting.

And part of me had this crazy idea that maybe if we were siblings, we’d be closer.

I wouldn’t have changed that decision if I had known the genetics thing back then like I do now.

I don’t know, though. He is a lot more than a little brother to me. He does feel like my son.

But like he said, I’m not his father, because I can’t change decisions I made in the past.

He’s any more my son like a sperm donor is a father to any kids that genetically are linked to him. If you just try to use the genetic element for your argument.

But I tried to be some kind of fatherly figure to him.

And that’s where I fucked up.